Been tired, irritable, tense lately. It is 8:30 pm, and I am falling asleep in my chair while attempting to read studies for a lit. review. I have had a hard time with my breathing lately, although still not sure why, which makes me tense and irritable.
Perhaps I just need a few good hugs from someone who cares. Too bad those people are thousands of miles away. I have hugged myself before, and it feels pretty good, but it is certainly not the same.
I don’t resort to alcohol or drugs, although I am very slowly enjoying a glass of wine. I haven’t even had half of a glass in over an hour.
I am thinking I need more beach, but I have been too busy to make it there. Getting up in the morning is nearly impossible, and I have something to do after work and before the sun sets. At least I am running, but I truly feel that the ocean envelopes you and washes away the stresses of the day.
That’s the hug I think I need, at least for now.